Thursday, October 27, 2016

Full Disclosure

Dear Analin,

I haven't written in a long time because I am currently in denial. I fully recognize it won't change anything, but right now, it's what I need. Not having a girl was harder than I thought, though nothing could replace Benjamin. Nothing can replace you. As hard as it is for me to be pregnant, having a girl to wear the clothes in that big box doesn't look promising. Having another girl won't change what's wrong, anyway. It's a hard place to be right now.

I love you each and every day.

Mommy.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Happy Birthday.

Dear Analin,

happy birthday beautiful girl. I think about you every day and I miss you more than you can know.

If you had been here, I would have gotten you one of those big silly pink electric cars - either as a Jeep or Corvette. I wonder if you would have liked Frozen or Barbie better - maybe Brave - actually I think definitely Brave.

I love you so much. I always will.

Daddy.